Home?

So, I have been back in MD for 2 weeks now and up until yesterday, I was ok with it. I have missed being in TN and at Lee, but it has been bearable and I havent thought about it much, but I think yesterday was when it really started to get to me. Here in MD, this is where I grew up, but I dont feel like it’s where I live anymore. Yes, my family is here, but as far as where my heart is and where I consider home….I feel that is down in TN! I have very few friends here in MD and I havent really hung out with anyone yet. All I do is work and sleep and hang out in my room. Its as if my life is on hold whenever I am back here. I dont feel like I make any progress in my life during the summer or over Christmas break. But as soon as I get back to TN and specifically Lee, I feel like I’m moving toward something and there is some sort of progress going on. Maybe it’s the fact that I am in school and there is a real progression happening there. But I think it’s deeper then that. I’m not sure if I’m called to stay down there once I graduate but I cant help to think so. Why would God give me such a peace and longing to be in TN even when I’m back ‘home’ in MD with family? Could He be preparing me for what will happen in the future? I guess I should probably really start praying about that.
Actually, I should probably start praying about alot of things….or in general.
I’m in such a slump when it comes to my Christianity and my relationship with God. *sigh* I wish I didnt fight it so much and put all the effort into running when I could put that effort into following Him.
eh, I’ll write more later! I just had to get some of that off my heart!