“Hey now this is my desire, consume me like a fire…”
Not only are these lyrics to a great song, but truly a desire I have deep inside of me. However, at this moment, it is just a desire. i’m not doing anything to make it happen. I’m just standing here, hoping, wishing, wanting…but that’s all in my head. I need to start moving with my heart or nothing will get done. sure, it’s good to hope, wish, and want b/c i believe that’s where you start but until you get your heart rolling, you will continue be stationary! why is it so hard to get moving, even though it is such a desire to do so? i say to myself just about everyday ‘tonight i’m going to really get going, i’m going to read and journal and pray’ but nothing ever happens, i get distracted so easily.
I think it would be easier to just completely dive in….no baby steps, no small movements, just complete abandonment and dive in headfirst. that has to be the only real way to go deeper with God. i guess i’m afraid of failure! i’m afraid that i wont grow quick enough, or learn fast enough, or enough in general. i’m afraid i’m going to let God down. haha how funny does that sound? if i havent let him down already in my life, i dont know what would do it?
so i guess my only choice is to really just dive in and drink in that desire and be consumed by fire….fire from God.
